Why Wait: Writing to Self

Today’s weekly “writing about writing” is short and sweet, asking a couple qs, and responding with affirmations. How am I writing about myself, for and to myself? (And so, this post is really for me, present and future!)

How am I honoring my experiences, past, present, and what’s to come?

How can I release the past, so I can focus on the now?

I’m starting with not focusing on accomplishments. Conversely, I don’t want to focus on mistakes, either.

I’m proud of the work I’ve done. But there’s so much more to do.

But I am more than what I do. I have to be, right?

I’m learning to repeat, meditate on this gentle mantra:

I am more than what I do.

I am working on BEING. Being in the moment. Even if that means being fearful (and I have been a lot lately) of what’s to come. I am embracing that this fear of the unknown is actually a disguise for learning.

Being aware of my surroundings. Being myself.

It’s been a hard journey of simply being.

But I need to be there for myself, or no one else will. Or, if I get too attached to the ‘doings’, someone or something else will take over my schedule.

And that slips into worth = work all over again. No, thank you.

I am capable of hard things.

Instead of sharing what I’ve done in the past, I’m sticking to the present tense.

I am strong. My brain picks up on cues, sometimes unconsciously. My legs have endured countless miles this week. I have turned to fruits and veggies instead of chocolate.

I am independent. I don’t need a life partner to feel satisfied. I can make myself happy. And sometimes, I am content. And sometimes, I am lonely. And that’s okay too.

I am capable. My skills are growing. And some of them may not be directly related to my jobs, but there’s more work to be done than what pays rent.

I can do this.

And so can you.